Nothing

I don’t even want to write about it... fuck it!! There has to be something better, I know I deserve it. But the fact of the matter is... Boys Suck!!

What am I scared of?

I have come to the conclusion, that you can as well as you can't pick who you love.

It has come to my attention, that maybe i have been making a decision on who i love, and yet have no control on how much i love him... the thing is that now realizing and coming to the realization that he loves me back and just as much, and declared this to me really freaked me out.  Like, do i really want this?

IT'S NOT BECUASE I DON'T LOVE HIM!!

It is because I have been alone or least has felt alone for such a long time, I wouldn't even know how to hold his hand in public. All this time wanting to and yesterday when he decided to kiss me in front of the whole world i got super squirmy. But the day before i had made the decision that no matter the day came that I would be left heart broken by him I would love him anyways and let my feelings do as they please for the first time I am just willing to love someone witch is rather scary I should say but the trick is to not think of the future or the breaking of hearts, if I kept holding myself back I would have never had the opportunity to love anyone.

MOOD: Scared shitless!!! 

WhAt abOut A BoY...?: Am I just bitching or am I right?

WhAt abOut A BoY...?: Am I just bitching or am I right?: "okay, so technically I am single. Which is great, fine. However, I am tired as hell of every guy that comes my way, I give them a rolli..."

So Stupid

what is a man for!? what good is it, en these situations you have to be very careful with who you fuck with because things aren't all pretty and pink.

whats love? what does it matter now? with so many divorces and somany children living without there father because they just wouldn't. Why be with someone if you can do it yourself.

Am I just bitching or am I right?

okay, so technically I am single. Which is great, fine. However, I am tired as hell of every guy that comes my way, I give them a rolling of the eyes, if you know what I mean. I would just like a normal guy that will love me and care for me like every girl wants.  But,  I am not like every girl. I'm a little complicated and its not a normal "OH SHE'S A COMPLICATED CHICK" thing, it's more like... "THAT CHICK IS A LITTLE NUTS" thing, but guys seem to find it interesting anyways, just not the right ones I guess.

Let get back to what i was talking about in the post before, I seem to fall in and out of love with an ease that is almost not normal. I get bored and over it easily and if I end up getting bored well thats the last you will probably see of me.

I love my friends and since they are most men, I have the problem of either mothering them or wanting to be treated as a girl by a boy, you know? It's just that all the time I am treated as one of the guys, blah blah blah. Whatever, I am a woman though and definitely like being treated like one at least once in a while.

I guess all i really want is to fall in love, and stay in love. Be taken care of and have someone to count on.

The boys make fun, they say that they do everything a boyfriend or a husband has to do without the benefits. I thought that was funny. And maybe I do have people to count on, I guess I don't quit know how to explain it.    

INTRO!!!

If anyone really hates the war between sexes, it’s me. Why!? Because their stupid.

First, you cannot compare one sex with the other. I mean, a dude is a dude and a chick is a chick, a boy is a boy and a girl is a girl, as well as a man is a man and a woman is a woman. It would be like comparing a cat with a dog… a dog is fun messy and always there when a cat is always licking himself coughing up hairballs and always on your ass and walking between your feet. Oh and worst of all they shit in a box inside the house, I mean, what the fuck is that all about, just go outside!!Fucking pussies.

Okay maybe that’s a bad comparison, I’m not a cat person.

Anyways let me get to the point before I ramble myself into a corner.

Fuck… already did. 

Hmmm… okay, I mean lets just look at the outer layer (as in body) they have dicks. Some small some big, some fat, some thin, some short and others fat to the left, to the right up or not upping at all ;) yeah you should get the idea they have junk when we have what is usually called a pussy, it also may have differences in each other that I won’t get into because this isn’t blog isn’t about woman, its of a womans thoughts and I’m not thinking about pussy at least not today.

I did it again, the rambling I mean… how do I ramble on a blog? (Un edited) its genius!!

Okay, okay back to it.

I am the girl that always hangs with the boys. Always!! So how could I? On the other hand, why not, we do sleep with the enemy; why not hang with the enemy. “keep your friends close and your enemies closer?” how does that work out when the enemy is my friend?