I have come to the conclusion, that you can as well as you can't pick who you love.
It has come to my attention, that maybe i have been making a decision on who i love, and yet have no control on how much i love him... the thing is that now realizing and coming to the realization that he loves me back and just as much, and declared this to me really freaked me out. Like, do i really want this?
IT'S NOT BECUASE I DON'T LOVE HIM!!
It is because I have been alone or least has felt alone for such a long time, I wouldn't even know how to hold his hand in public. All this time wanting to and yesterday when he decided to kiss me in front of the whole world i got super squirmy. But the day before i had made the decision that no matter the day came that I would be left heart broken by him I would love him anyways and let my feelings do as they please for the first time I am just willing to love someone witch is rather scary I should say but the trick is to not think of the future or the breaking of hearts, if I kept holding myself back I would have never had the opportunity to love anyone.
MOOD: Scared shitless!!!
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